What has luck got to do with it?

I just have no answer to that question which is plaguing me for the past few months, since the run of things are not to plan and not to my favor.

Jumping for joy at one time only to be terribly let down and hopes dashed when things are always too good to be true. I’m just lost for words especially as a fellow muslim, we try our best to fulfill our promise and if we are not able to, then we explain why and try to get an amicable resolution.

In spite of things, even though they are never to plan, occurrences are costly. Those incur expenses which are ill afford to many and to me, especially when the economy is tight and time awasted since a promise is made and contract sealed.

And that I have to be cruel to be kind, as a friend, as a partner and as a lover, that sometimes my acts are trashy and abusive, but I have to do it for the better good, to ensure your own good health and those around us, that of those who we love. Let the pain and slurs of words be upon me only to be satisfied that to see you well and up again.

And for that, I think after all it’s worth, I have to back off after all is well, for I know who and what I am, someone who you did not love and do not desire. For I am often what is excess baggage and a pest.

I know what is what, and why is such, but do you?

Just my dumb Luck right?

Happy Holidays!Wish you be merry and prosperity and Good Fortunes bestow upon you and everyone around you and those who you care.

Live Long and Prosper.



Dan aku sedar apa dan siapa aku
Siapa diri ku ini, hanya seorang yang berjalan di atas bumi ini,
Dan hidup ini ibarat tempat aku berteduh sementara waktu.
Berteduh kerana bumi ini adalah tempat aku mencari rezeki, untuk akhirat nanti.

Akan tetapi, aku percaya akan apa yang telah terjadi dan akan berjadi adalah kehendak yang Illahi.
Yang baik sahaja akan berlaku dan aku kena faham akan pengajaran dan menghargai waktu aku.
Tapi janganlah aku di bazirkan begitu saja. Kerana aku tidak dapat merintih di hati.
Hanya Allah mengetahui dasar isi di hati ini

Drowning in Sorrows

The Art of Drowning, is not a part of Suffering

For Drowning in the water will diminish the form of the Human being,

The Art of Drowning, of one in one’s own sorrows bring so much in pain

That the one who is around him, is not much known of how he is dying, Drowning.

Got suspended again…

This time Pronethosting suspended me for downloading and proxying the MSDN files , namely the Windows 7 Enterprise Edition….. because Microsoft direct download is bad….and despite the throttle and fast download.
This is thanks to TELEKOM MALAYSIA and the 1MB shared bandwidth ..and the fact that the whole Malaysia is connected only to a 40GB link, with consumers using only 10Gbps link.

Errgh! I hate to say this..but it really sucks!

Remembering those days…

Sometimes, things may look and feel like it’s Dejavu and makes me wonder…is my mind just playing up with remorse or stressed out? Off which it makes me really in pain, as it does bother me, since it is the start of the Muslim New Year ( Maal Hijrah ) and such a deal as I have totally tried to forget the past and of the pain and agony of the last 8 years of my life. Even though the person is someone whom I care about, loved and at one point or another , is my common law wife… we have to move on.

Someone do tell me if we dream of the person, either that the person is in dire need, such as in sickness or ill health, or death or something like that.. that we have to seek it out. One of which I do seek forgiveness from that person and God Al-Mighty for He knows what is in my heart, for I did so many bad things in life that sometimes, time does not cure.. but add a bucket full of salt to the grief.

Whatever it is, I seek the forgiveness of everyone, for intentionally or not, for life may be that short.

Great Customer service?

During my course of travel round the planet, I have encountered many airlines, the good, the bad and the ugly and among them I find worthy of my mention is the American Airlines, which is part of the One World Alliance. This bit of travel recommendation would definitely cause many to lash out their fury at me due to the numerous incompetence of the airline, but in the end the people in front and behind it are just plain human, full of humanity.

I was due for a trip back from a very long haul and multi legged journey, having flew from Kuala Lumpur to Las Vegas for a convention via Singapore, Narita, San Jose before arriving in Mac Caran Airport in Las Vegas, Nevada which took over 2 days before continuing to London via Fort Worth Dallas, New York City and then to London via Dublin airport and having done my Las Vegas meetings, I was not that eager to get on the flight back as it will take another long haul, over 12 hours plus transit times, but then the ground crew was excellent.

Hats off to the guys at the front desk when they saw my itinerary, which caused them to jaw drop as my route was to fly to Miami before going to New York, and shifted my flight into priority as I was on the business class, which surprisingly was not available on that leg. So they put me on a Dallas bound flight before hopping into New York City and even compensated me for the downgrade with vouchers and money as the first class was full. It was a commuter trip to me and I would not bat an eyelid, but the dinner provided was good plus $500 for the hassle caused and the difference in routing was put forward as a refund on my ticket. Best of all, I was happy being in Vegas, the airport was spacious and full of fruit machines to entertain me with.

Back on the trip to Fort Worth Dallas, the incoming flight was delayed by an hour due to foul weather and thus caused me to miss my connection. Another stink up my sleeve and an excuse for me to catch a nap while the crew work something for me. Pleasantries were all about as I was as patient as we can, being living in London for 15 years and the crude prank on us for train delays and such are just part and parcel of the game, for it was not their doing but a knock on effect. Standard rules apply, and because I don’t kick a fuss out of it, they put me on an available flight out, thinking I know where I was going and that they did reroute and changed my outgoing connections in time. 7 hours later, I was on the flight out.

Halfway through, being a foreigner and wanting to know where I was, I realized I was to land onto Newark in New Jersey and that is a far distance away from JFK. So I did ask the stewardess at the end of the galley and they did call up to the ground crew

Happy Thanksgiving

It’s time to be thankful of what God Almighty gave and provided to us for the years and the coming of whatever it is to be provided. For the Life that He grant to us, we thank Him for the Grace we are being provided with.

It is also the start of the Wukuf, or Hajj rites where one remembers the decent of Adam and Eve to the Earth from the heavens, and that they were reunited back on the Plains of Arafah where millions of Pilgrims congregate. Also that we remind ourselves of the sacrifices that the Prophets’ sacrifices in the Name of Allah.

For whatever it is, We have to Give Thanks, for it’s not the meat or blood that will reach God, but the act and thought of sacrifice in His Name.

Allahu Akbar, Allahu Akbar, Allahu Akbar
There is no other to be praised but God
For God do not lie and he Keep to His Promise
That He despatch His Armies in Grace
Even during times that the Kafirun cursed and torture us
That there is no other supreme being but God.